What the Hell are We Doing?
What the hell are we doing?
I’ll try to keep this short as it can obviously go in many different lengthy directions but…I’m currently working and have been in a cubicle type setting for about the past six years.
With all of the people on this earth afraid of death and talking about “only living once” I’m extremely surprised that I still have never heard anyone wake up out of their cubicle haze and say “Wait a minute…what the hell are we doing? I HATE this…I think I’m gonna go home and hug my kids or something… Goodbye”.
We literally have no idea why we’re on this earth and we easily recognize as children what makes us happy and what makes us sad yet almost everyone I’m “privileged” to work around is still able to sit here every day, practically emotionless, and crank out another pointless day of “work”.
How do they do it? Am I really to believe that the system has shut off every one of these peoples’ dreams and goals? Are some people just more easily taken advantage of? Perhaps a lot of folks are in more denial than I am or maybe some people are just kind of stupid??? Literally it baffles my mind every day. It washes over me like heavy waves pummeling and beating me down… How can we all sit here like this? Why are more people not randomly crying at work and clinically depressed like I am? We aren’t guiding and controlling our own lives…they are actually being guided by someone else.
The people that “own” this world with their money and power have the greatest comforts and freedoms and we are working like slaves so that they can afford more comforts and freedoms. These ways of life are not affording us anything that we care about and they need to be abandoned. We need to reassess our goals and our lives as people and continue to get rid of the things that aren’t serving us anymore. We can easily live together without money as people did it for MUCH longer than we have with it. These models that have been set forth for us by our parents or cultures are literally not serving the majority but yet they are serving the minority. If someone sitting in a cubicle or slaving away at some shitty job still has enough consciousness to answer the question honestly “Are you happy working here?” I think most would say “No”.
A little about me: I was raised in a lower class blue collar family that worked hard to make ends meet. Such an upbringing placed an ideology within me that one should make “safe” and “secure” career decisions as opposed to choices towards dreams and real life joys. “Struggle” was seen as a bad thing which is hilarious because it exists everywhere in everything. It’s an innocent enough mentality to have. So instead of playing music with friends, and living an “unstructured” lifestyle, I chose to go to college for art and found a “professional” job right after school. I immediately became depressed and felt hopeless after about one month. Had I continued to follow my passion, I may have “struggled” to pay bills and not had a steady place to live and that was (and probably still is) deemed insanity by the society I grew up in. Personal happiness and goals literally played no part in the mix. Instead I’ve had rather steady places to live with rather steady income and I’ve been depressed and screaming to live a meaningful life every step of the way.
So is this really any way to live? Is living an “unsafe” lifestyle really dangerous or bad? In my experience “safety” and “safe” choices couldn’t have served my personal happiness and fulfillment any less. Who’s to say that if I was “living in a van down by the river” I wouldn’t actually be more joyous and filled with purpose? I’ve actually met people that have traveled the world with just a back pack and they have stories, life changing experiences and life lessons to share.
Lastly, some people reading this may very well have been under the assumption that I’m a musician and probably make a living doing so but … I do not. I’ve actually made less from my music sales than I make in one week at my job. This year I will be ultimately setting myself up to hopefully make a living from music exclusively but alas…. I’m working to pay bills and survive like most everyone else. Hilariously enough, while typing this “blog” I actually have to-do-so quietly as my boss may in-fact hear that I’m not working and it could literally put my job in jeopardy. haha
One last thought… Did you ever have a great conversation with someone and think to yourself “Wow…I wish I could do this every day!” but you couldn’t do it every day because that person goes to work and you go to work and then after work you’re tired and they’re busy and blah… and then blah….and then you might blah..zzzzzzz. Sharing with people, helping each other, creating things together…. these are some of the most amazing experiences on the planet and we can’t do them because we are slaves to corporations. Slaves so that we can buy a bigger house or a newer car with leather heated seats and a better cd player. Which is really more important…which joy really lasts longer?